Where will you be?

its been too long
so much has happened.

I work too much....i think all the help i get financialy might be coming to an end with me making this much money (8 an hour lol....my paychecks are miserable....but not miserable enough for the government i guess)

OH WELL

fuck the government...

Cafe much?

so its been officially a week since ive been working at Barnes and Noble. Its not too shabby. i like working with all the people there, theyre really chill and easy going. sumtimes i zone when theyre trying to teach me shit but, i figure it out later on anyways so thats not so bad either. i still have to look at the sheet for a few drinks but other than that i think im set. i just need to get working on being efficient and master the art of Multi-tasking lol.

i got my first paycheck and everything and apparantly it was supposed to be a big deal but i guess no one remembered to give a shit. but its normal. im used to that ;). sumtimes its a good thing and sumtimes.....i could care less.

oohhh i have work in the morning too. im out.

Dreamworld

I feel like a revitalized person. I havent been home in god knows how long. ive been at the aunts house for quite some time. Life seems adequate. i guess if it werent for mental breakdowns the euphoric points in life wouldnt be so....well....euphoric.

There was this piece of skin that was cut off on the side of my thumb. i decided to peel it off and its been stinging for days.

I wish there was something more to life sometimes. I know there is. but i wish there was something more to my life.

I keep dreaming of places high up where the clouds seem like cottonballs that could be held in the palm of my hand. I wander for a while then i plummet. Plunging down through the mackeral sky. Falling to nothing but water and a pebbly shore. The waves grow and grow and the eventually consume me whole along with the enitre waterfront. Falling through a beautiful sky. Swallowed by the uncharted sea. Wonder what all these dreams mean in the end

Amalgamation

I cant help but look at this picture and hope to dream about this place when i fall asleep, because it seems as if this place can only be found on that plane of existance. The picture has this neverending quality of it where the sky and land meet but go on forever into the distance even though they seem so different. So much to say. so little time.

I hope to visit this place soon.

BLAB!

I subscribed to Juxtapoz finally but i want to subscribe to GiantRobot now
BUT IM BROKE!
who wants to give me 25 bucks?
anyone?.........anyone?..........anyone?

bueller?..... bueller?


goodnight.

Typical

*sigh*

im 18 and i have no clue what goes on in the outside world. I want to go....i want to leave this place and get my credits...transfer and just go. I want to be free of the family burden.

typical sheltered teen rant huh?

fuck.

Escaped Convict(ion) mail.

i just got it in the mail. numbered and signed by the one and only
im numero 58. it was like 40 bucks but its worth it trust me. I didnt get any presents for my birthday
so i bought it for myself. with sum money i got from my mom and grandma.

i think its quite a nice present to myself.

my mom doesnt tho ;)

surprise surprise